Friday, August 10, 2007

phantom

a solemn vigil
stands sentinel over
the corpse of a man unknown

and the sun comes out
the sun shines
the solemn vigil
left the place

the burried body has been hidden
the solemn vigil took a last look
and walks away
masked and pure

the solemn vigil
no one knows
no one cares
did endure

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Friday, August 10, 2007

guilt

singe a flying bird
sing the dragons song
leave red ember behind
where brute force came along
so uncontontrolled along

who did ever say
devastation would
create a better way
destroying what you want
when holding it at hand
just brings man its own taunt

regret the killing blow
when finally you get
it is not what you want
yet it seems better to your head
being free of it instead

the feeling of vast guilt
at least comes to mans mind
when such a dirty trick
really would work and find
your shameful needs behind

who did ever say
devastation would
create a better way
destroying what you want
when holding it at hand
just brings man its own taunt

guilt is a thing
to get rid of
clean heart and soul
be better off
i’d rather die
than live a lie
if i can’t take
the world awake
i sleep at day
and walk away
yet want so much
and try to clutch
it all
by every meaning
and try to get it
with all known trying

so fuck this world that fucks with me
lets see what my eyes are going to see
lets see the ending of that tears
lets cry again and try to stand
in search for a better land
my head feels much to full of too much fears

fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck

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Tuesday, August 07, 2007

hush

there is an empty room
for those that do not know
there is silence in this room

this room is so dark
for those that do know
so cold reclusion in the dark

hush
i guess i hear your thoughs
i try to read them from your eyes
i try to say, what your feelings will
do with the convolutions of your brain
do what you want, i love you still
hush
i will be there for you

so make your choice
and pick your way
you made your choice

i search my mask
it’s withered now
i really hope i find my mask

you woke my heart
i tasted blood
now closing down my running heart

hush
i guess i hear your thoughs
i try to read them from your eyes
i try to say, what your feelings will
do with the convolutions of your brain
do what you want, i love you still
hush
i will be there for you

it is a cold decision now
i feel not longer worth to have you
it is an ice cold painful vow

i dreamed that you had changed your mind
that i could dance with you so pure
i don’t know what i’m gonna find

hush
i guess i hear your thoughs
i try to read them from your eyes
i try to say, what your feelings will
do with the convolutions of your brain
do what you want, i love you still
hush
i will be there for you

now i walk away from you
can listen to your tears soft drop
and dream of being one with you

my shaking hands try’n grip my mask
‘ escape this world i do not want
i cried, i begged for just one task

so many things i want to do
but what remained is this last chance
perhaps i’m dumb – to quit the flow

i must not turn around
i seem so stupid to my self
i pray before i hear
my masks silent closing sound

hush
i guess i hear your thoughs
i try to read them from your eyes
i try to say, what your feelings will
do with the convolutions of your brain
do what you want, i love you still
hush
i will be there for you

i fear
my head will never forget
i fear
you being consoled by him
i fear
that all this shit is real
i close my eyes
and sleep again
and wake up
as a void man

hush
hush me
i love you so
i do not want to live this way
please take my hand
before i walk astray
you know the price
you never paid
i feel so dead
it feels too late
hush me, hurt him
or let it be
feel hushed
feel hugged

and then
i’m dead again

and do not realize why

hush, i can not help but cry

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